So what does all of that mean?

Round 6 Cycle 1 Phase 2 Day 1

So I start this round at 166.8 – which is 26.2 over my LIW which was on September 22, 2008.  I didn’t have a proper P3, I had extreme stress involved with a trip to Hawaii to help my mother recover from 2nd and 3rd degree burns and I had a cruise.  Came back to forum problems, and sickness galore in me as well as my household.

You know how I feel about the numbers right?  Ok, let’s look at this.  I came off of my Cycle 4 of my Round 5 on the 22nd of September at 140.6 – I had actually a pretty decent few weeks, maintaining pretty well until just before I went to Hawaii on the 27th of October.  That weekend before I left I had two parties I had to attend and feed a plethora of people, in which I indulged.  So as I got on the plane on the 27th, I was already 4 lbs over LIW – when I returned home on the 20th of November, I was officially 13.2 pounds over what I was when I left here, but 17.2 over my LIW – not good, but not horrible.

I quickly went on High Fat, lost a good 10 lbs in like 2 weeks, then I got sick, and turned to comfort food.  Mainly canned soup and pb&j sandwiches, ugh.  Gained that back, and THEN some.  Ok, fine, I can do it again, lost another 10 lbs in like 10 days, and then the winter break, in which my very good friend decides to play suzy homemaker and make all her treats.  So again, I gained, and THEN some.  Oh well – I only have myself to blame, if there is blame to be placed.

Today tho, I am in the zone.  Here it is almost 4pm and I am NOT hungry.  I had mentioned I was starting this round with a modified ‘egg’ day – 6 eggs for the day, and I have had 3 so far and actually don’t want the rest, but I know better and will eat them anyway.

My goal for this round?  Hmmmm, that is a tough one.  My goal is to make it to 21 days clean.  And I will be happy with whatever that number is.  But if I go by past performance?  I can usually lose around .80 per day on a short round, so let’s hope for 16.8 pounds – I will be happy with that for the 21 days.  But I wrestle with wanting to stay on Protocol until I hit the 20 lb mark, so this is a toughy.

I go back to wanting to do this 21 days clean.

I am the master of my domain.

Yup, that is what I am doing this round, testing how far I can possibly go to prove that Dr. Simeons knows exactly what he is talking about.  Seriously.  What is with the LOADING I am doing?  I must have this unreal belief system that Dr. Simeons will indeed come through like he always has and I will have no problem losing this gain I am acquiring from this LOAD?!?!?

Oh well, I am not concerned.  Who do I have to apologize to?  I have no one to blame but myself.  I choose what goes into this mouth of mine, and I haven’t loaded for what seems like YEARS so I took advantage of this time to go ahead and try it once again.

Funny, the first time I started on Protocol, I loaded for three days and didn’t gain or lose an ounce, what was up with that?  The next round, I tried to load, and I just couldn’t do it properly, but I gained 2.6 and lost it the first night.  Oh well, this time, it looks like my load will be around 5 lbs, I am thinking anyway.

JPS tells me she always thought my body responded to HCG very quickly.  By yesterday afternoon, I had already gotten tired of food, full of food – and now today?  It’s around 3:30pm, I have had three shortbread cookies (thanks to JPS baking even MORE), 1 chewie, and two hotdogs, and it feels like I have stuffed myself all day.  So obviously, things are already starting to work, imagine that.

Tomorrow?  I am planning on starting my round with a modified egg day.  6 eggs all day long, that will give me around 450 calories.  But what it will do more than anything else is to get rid of all this junk that I have not been used to eating out of my system quick.  Eggs have a certain “clean out” effect on me, so I will use them to get a good start on my round.

When I get up tomorrow, I will decide what my goal will be for the round.  I have no idea what it will be, I may be doing this for 28 days instead of just 21 as I want to get down to my LIW – and who knows how far that will be?  I wont even know until tomorrow.

So over at the Happily Thinner After Community Forums, there is a thread that was started by ArticShark called “I am the Master of my DOMAIN” – it was a thread set up to mark each day that we make it thru the round DEVIATION FREE – I can’t wait to put my two cents in there.  That will be Tuesday, that is for sure.

I am looking forward to a KILLER round!

It took  me about 5 whole minutes this morning to inject.  What in the world was I waiting for?  It was almost as difficult to inject myself this morning as it was the very first time I ever tried, way back in June of 2007!  HA!  Well, not really, but it was pretty darn close.  It wasn’t anxiety about doing another round, but instead just the mere fact of giving myself a shot.  Well, it’s over now, and I can move on to have one of the best rounds ever of all time.

I am really excited about this.  For the first time in a long while, I have gotten excited about protocol again.  Could it be the hundreds of people on the Happily Thinner After Community Forums starting again that is creating this excitement in me?  Could it be the old timers that have resurfaced over the last week that have created this excitement?  I don’t know, but whatever it is, it’s happening and it’s making it very easy to get into the zone.

I had planned for the last couple of weeks to try something new with this ‘load’ – and that was to load using the ‘high fat’ method.  Well, my friend JPS took that idea and threw it out the window, seriously.  She decided to play Suzy Homemaker this week and bake things that we wouldn’t be able to have for the next few months.  We had both made the decision to do clean rounds, with clean Phase 3′s – and so she got a hankering for some sweets.  Some sweets???  She has made Pecan Chewies, Blondies, Chocolate Chip Coffee Cake, and Banana Bread – all this in the last 2 days.  Well, my kids and my husband are flipping out just loving this much sweets in the house, but quite frankly it’s making me sick.  HA!  But that hasn’t stopped me from trying all these delectable delights.  Oh well, what can I say?  It is what it is.  So this will be the first time I have actually “loaded” before a round in a really long time.

No matter, even if I spend this entire round going back to LIW – this wont be the first time I have made that trek.  But I am gonna do my best to make it my last.  Nothing, as far as I can say today, is in my immediate future to do.  No traveling, which seems to be my biggest obstacle in maintaining weight loss.  This round does not include any traveling, no special events, nothing that is in my way to really proving that this protocol works and works just as prescribed when done as written.

So that is my goal this round.  To do things by the book.  Let’s see what I can accomplish by going back to the basics.  Doing things Dr. Simeons way.

One more day to VLCD #1!!!