Prompt – What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?

Hmmmm, drip by drip evolution.  What an interesting way of putting it.

I learned in 2010 the truism to this statement: 

Time Heals All Wounds

There has been a plethora of emotions that I have been through this year; resentment, anger, depression, blame, hurt, shame, vulnerability, fear, and yet, I did experience the other end of the spectrum as well, peace, joy, gratitude, happiness, laughter, contentment and utter surprise.  Time is the factor that helps balance it all out.

In 2011, I expect the healing process to take on a different aspect.

A friend recently said to me, “Biz, you have an amazing capacity to forgive, however, it looks like you have a hard time forgiving yourself.”

In 2011, I will learn to forgive myself.

Have you experienced a healing of some sort in 2010?

Prompt – What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it?

Do or not do, there is no try. ~ Yoda

I cannot be the ONLY one that thought of this one?  ARGH, I really don’t like the word “try” – you are setting yourself up for failure when you say “try”.  It’s either you do or you do not do.  It’s a choice.

I have been “trying” to get a newsletter together for 3 years – NOT DONE until I just did it.

You want one a little closer to home?

I have been “trying” to do a clean P2 for almost 2 years now – NOT DONE – let’s see, I “tried” about 8 different times in 2010 to start a round, and each time I let something get in my way.  What happens when I “try”?  It doesn’t happen.

What happens when I commit?  It happens – it happened from June 2007-September of 2008 – I was COMMITTED to protocol, and the results were that I lost and lost well and fast.

So instead of what to “try” for 2011 … let’s say, what will I commit to in 2011?

I commit to reaching 140 lbs.

Just WATCH me!

What do YOU commit to do in 2011?

Prompt – What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward?

I turned 48 this year.  In those 48 years,  I have been married twice, once for 11 years, and the 2nd time for 15 years – so married for a total of 26 years – more than half my life.

That is a heck of a long time to be living with someone – and then to find yourself NOT, well, that was something I had to learn how to do all over again, but this time, throw in a child.

As terrified as I was of doing this on my own, I didn’t think twice about making the leap (the net will appear right???), drag what I could get in my car and move my daughter and I to where I have been trying to get back to for 30 years!

I didn’t know how I was going to make a living – I didn’t know how I was going to support my daughter – yet, things seemed to work out just when they needed to.

What did I learn from this experience?  That I have it in me to play the hand dealt me, and come out the other side better than when I started.  I learned that I am resilient.  I learned that I can indeed make the best of things.  I learned that living on my own, is really not so bad at all.  I learned how to be a better Mom, a better daughter and a better sister.  Have I mastered these things.  NOPE!!!  But I am not scared to keep on living.

What did you learn about yourself this year?