LIW – 175.4 lbs (12/17/07)
Today’s Weight – 181.0 lbs
5.6 OVER LIW

Here is my menu for yesterday. This is what I had:

I didn’t stick to a Breakfast / Lunch / Dinner thing yesterday. I pretty much desired fresh, raw food so that is what I fed my body. I ate apples, bananas, oranges, grapes, cherries and walnuts all during the day, drinking also 2 cups of dandelion tea. Throw in a couple of scrambled eggs, and then I made a Blue Cheese Chopped Salad for dinner with a small bit of steak. That was all I wanted, so that is all I ate.

A total of around 1700 calories divided this way: 99 Fat, 169 Carbs, 60 Protein

After I posted yesterday, I actually did find myself a battery and weighed myself. It was not pretty. Keep in mind this was about 2 or so hours later than I usually weigh myself, and that I was working on hardly any sleep, so the numbers may be off, but I was up to 183.4 – wow. Amazing what eating junk will do to you.

Eating majority raw and fresh yesterday really helped me. I dropped 2.4 from that number and I am back down to a more reasonable overage (is that even a word?)

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Stalls, Gains and Cravings – What to do? P2 Experience Only

I received an email this morning, and I wrote such a novel back I decided that my answer to this person would qualify as a post for today. I have removed this person’s name from my answer to protect privacy.This person wanted me to know that they were having basically the same struggles as I have been experiencing over the last week or so and was curious on my thoughts as to why this has happening. HA! Don’t EVER ask me to theorize why something is happening on this protocol! Anyhoo, here was my answer to this person!

Not quite sure this time ******. I have my theories, but they are just my theories. I have been thinking a lot about this, especially yesterday. Let me explain.These insatiable cravings started for me just around the turn of the year. Following my blog, you know I didn’t spend one day coming off my R3P2 in true “P3″ fashion (error in judgment #1). The 28th of Dec (day 9 of R3P3) was the first day I was over my LIW by more than 2 pounds. And I decided (with regret I might add) that I was not going to bother with bringing it down, that it would come down by itself (error in judgment #2).

Starting that day, the closest I have been to my LIW was on the 4th of Jan, and still that was at 2.4 over. I should have listened to what the good doctor said and taken care of the situation AS IT HAPPENED (error in judgment #3) but I didn’t, so is that HIS issue or MINE?

The weekend of the 29th and 30th, I started noticing I was having some sweet cravings. Now ******, this is something that is NOT normal for me, even PRE HCG. My thing, my entire life, has NEVER been sweets, I have always been one to crave SALT. So, I rationalized in my mind that this was something new and that I needed just to go with it (error in judgment #4). I started baking cookies, among other things to satisfy the cravings. As it went on, day by day, I felt more of a need for sweets – it was becoming pretty overpowering. Quite a strange feeling, for me anyway.

Throw in there that this past weekend (the 5th and 6th), I was getting some pretty strange “emotional” feelings, now these in particular reminded me of pre-HCG – I would have these incredible HIGHS and LOWS of mood swings during “that time”. I was breaking out in tears for absolutely NO reason, confronting my husband about small issues which led to huge fights, and pretty much wanted total seclusion from the world. It reached a peak on Thursday, and I literally went nuts. I ate things so out of character for me. I blame part of that on the migraine I had, but there was just something inside me that totally flipped a switch.

When deviating from plan during my 2nd and 3rd breaks, I have striven to focus on “it has to be really worth it” for me to eat it. Thursday? It went out the window, I threw that puppy off the Empire State Building in fact. When we went out to dinner that night, I ate things that tasted quite frankly JUST AWFUL. I look back on it and say, OMG – what the HECK was I thinking??? It so wasn’t worth it.

Yesterday though? It seriously just STOPPED. The cravings disappeared. I’m not kidding, to show you how serious it was, I didn’t even want my coffee. Now THAT is strange! ROFL As quick as this sweet craving thing came on, it left. Today? As I start my morning, I feel NOTHING of what I have felt over the last 10 or so days. No desire for sweets, no emotional disturbance.

So to answer your question, quite frankly, I will say what I have said about this whole protocol, it’s nothing but a cr*p shoot. I don’t know really why this time I had sweet cravings when in the past I haven’t. I know I haven’t had a normal menses since I started this protocol. I also know that Dr S was very specific about his protocol, and the choices I have made go in direct conflict to his program, so I have paid the price. Like I said before, it’s not HIS fault these things happened. He told me what to expect, and I did my own thing, and this is where it got me.

Let me interject something here, you mentioned that you felt you were finally ‘cured’ of all your ailments, but now you really wonder. This protocol is an ongoing process ******. I have never looked at this protocol as a “cure” for my emotional attachment to food. I have always looked at this protocol as a “cure” for obesity. It is getting me to my GOAL of a certain weight. My relationship to food is still something I am going to have to work on, probably for the rest of my life. It has also been a tool in helping me become more aware of what I am doing to my body.

All I can do is move on. I am thinking this whole episode was something I had to experience. Another lesson I had to learn to help me in my journey. The BIGGEST lesson I am learning ******, is not to freak about it. I am learning to have a different relationship with food. For every two steps I take forward, I have to step back one just to see where I am.

I seriously don’t know if this answered your question. But let me tell you this. I don’t think this whole episode had anything to do with artificial sweeteners, and everything to do with hormones.

On to my commenter’s – these are my responses to yesterday’s comments:

CB – I will consider that CB in an upcoming post. Just FYI tho, I think that if Dr S would have seen a relationship with bad breaks and short rounds, he would have said something, but that is just my gut response right now. Thanks for being there my sweet, just knowing that your there is comforting.

Wendy – The first time I had fried pickles, I was in Mobile AL right after Katrina hit and I was doing some relief work there. It was at this country restaurant and I went GAGA over these things. Thursday night? They were NOT worth the 2nd bite, yet I kept eating, what was up with that??? When you going back on to P2 again???

Crystal – Your injecting daily? You doing a short round or what? I finally can’t WAIT to get back on P2! That feeling has finally come back! I am so ready!

Jennifer – Like I told CB I will attempt to cover that whole short round thing in a future post. I really don’t think the two relates ya know? But that is my GUT feeling. I had issues on my last break and that was after a 6 week P2 – so I don’t know. How is the blog coming???

Renee – Let me know your new addy ASAP I have some THINGS to discuss! ROFL! You are kicking butt girl, and taking names!

Lili - Ok girl, $21 for HOW MUCH??? You didn’t tell us the iu you can get it in. I need INFO! Oh, and I sent you my snail mail addy, but I got a auto response from your email, so hopefully you got it ok??? WOO HOO on your internet addiction! Now I don’t have to miss you ALL THAT MUCH! ROFL

B – Thanks girl, I did a bit of harm, but I am over it now, back to the basics ya know???

Another day! Make it a good one!

Biz

LIW – 175.4 lbs (12/17/07)
Today’s Weight – 178.2 lbs
2.8 OVER LIW

Here is my menu for yesterday. This is what I had:

Breakfast: 2 Scrambled Eggs with Coffee and Cream
Mid Morning Snack: Egg Salad (2 eggs with mayo, s&p)
Lunch: 2 Egg Omelet with a slice of Swiss Cheese
The Rest of the Day: 4 Deviled Eggs (made with mayo, mustard and SF Relish, s&p)

A total of around 1135 calories divided this way: 84 Fat, 17 Carbs, 72 Protein – I would call my “Egg Day” a success!!! WOO HOO FOR ME!

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Stalls, Gains and Cravings – What to do? P2 Experience Only

Thank you to Marilyn and Anne for more interview questions! I would still like to get some MORE questions from my Sunday’s post about interviews. If you didn’t see it could you go here and take a look, thanks!

Artificial Sweeteners – Friend or Foe?

So what prompted this discussion? Doing a little bit of research yesterday, I felt it would be in the best interest of my readers to delve into this topic. Who am I kidding? I have been blind way too long on the effects of Artificial Sweeteners and it’s time I understood them better. What better way than to spend a few days on this topic. I am learning a lot, and I would feel remiss if I didn’t share it with you!Based on our P2 and P3 experience, and based on the fact that many have ‘sweet cravings’, I felt this an important topic to consider. I offer NO recommendation on which sweetener you should use, this is a decision you must make for yourself. I am just providing information, and probably some commentary on MY views, but they are to be taken as just that, MY VIEWS! I AM NOT A DOCTOR NOR AM I A SCIENTIST, just a run of the mill Mom trying to learn about stuff that I bring into this house for my family to eat. These views are MY OWN:

The one thing I have noticed is that there sure are a lot of “chemical” names for this stuff, names and words I don’t understand, so I chose to find explanations for these terms in a way that I can understand what is going on. And I figure if I break it down so that even “I” can understand it, it might prove helpful to others as well.

For the purpose of this series of articles, I am going to concentrate on true “Artificial Sweeteners” – in other words, those sugar substitutes that are not natural. In the future, I will provide a series on the “natural” sugar substitutes. I want to define different types of “Artificial Sweeteners” that are available now, or have been available in the past. The order I am placing these in are of no significance, it’s just how I stumbled on the information.

The first one I will concentrate on, to begin this series will be Aspartame. If any of you out there have any interesting links to information about Aspartame, please feel free to drop me a line and let me know. I must ask one thing tho, please do not send me anything from Dr Mercola’s site. I understand that a lot of you out there put extreme trust in this man and his views, but I don’t feel the same way. To me, he is too much of a doomsday operator, and I prefer to rest my conclusions on facts, and not just feelings.

There are many ways to contact me, either by using the TagBoard up on my left side bar, or the contact form on my right side bar, or leave a comment here – or use this new fangled thing I came up with! ROFL

Mary – You are too funny! Isn’t it interesting tho, even tho you have eaten pretty much as you pleased, you seem to be maintaining around 6 or 7 lbs above LIW – there is something to be said for that. In some of the clinics I have contacted and asked questions to, I have found that most of them say you should figure around a 5 – 7 pound range when you are at goal. That normal people usually experience those kinds of fluxes. Interesting eh? I need to look into that more.

EweWho – I am SO GLAD YOUR BACK! I sure have missed you! I almost wrote you the other day, because I made those AWFUL COOKIES that I gave you the recipe for, OMG – they were so AWFUL – I have to keep telling myself that so I don’t make them again! Believe me, I am DRIPPING SARCASM! I had to beg the kids to hurry up and finish them, I didn’t want them around anymore!

Misto – Yes, my “egg day” is my alternative to a steak day. I have only done one steak day, and it was a total bust, I didn’t lose an ounce. So I opted to try something I did while I was on Atkins to kick start weight loss, and as you can see it works like a charm every time! It’s so much easier for me to do this than the steak day. The steak day was about the hardest thing I have ever had to do while on this protocol, yes, even harder than 500 cals a day!

CB – Yup, my eye is always on the prize! I can’t wait to join you on P2!!! Yup, I am getting ready!

B – I will be on my way later this morning to visit your post, maybe you have given me some insight on the whole deviation experience. It’s funny B, I don’t have these kinds of cravings on the P2 portion, and it’s really only been this round that my sweet cravings have kicked in. Very weird.

Have a WONDERFUL DAY!

Biz

LIW – 175.4 lbs (12/17/07)
Today’s Weight – 180.6 lbs
5.2 OVER LIW

Here is my menu for yesterday. This is what I had:

Breakfast: 2 Peanut Butter Drops – and a Pecan Chewy Candy
Mid Morning Snack: Half a serving of REGULAR Lasagna, two pieces of butter toast (white bread mind you)
Lunch: A hamburger (with swiss cheese, pickles, mayo and ketchup) complete with BUN, and some kettle chips, and throw in some Praline Pecans with a small amount of leftover potato salad!
Dinner: A small pork rib

A total of around 2000 calories divided this way: 110 Fat, 154 Carbs, 91 Protein

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I have taken down the TOM / Aunt Flo FAQ Question, and I am putting up another but I am going to wait until tomorrow.

I would still like to get some questions from my Sunday’s post about interviews. If you didn’t see it could you go here and take a look, thanks! Thanks goes to Jennifer and Becca for giving me some quality questions!

Just One of Those Days

Yesterday was not a good day for me. I didn’t get good sleep Sunday into Monday, in fact, I had gotten up at 1:30am and by the time I figured out I couldn’t get back to sleep (around 3:30am) it was way too late to take anything to help me sleep (my trusty Benadryl!) for fear I would sleep right through taking the kids to school.

Something about me? I don’t do well without sleep. Sleep has always been something that I require mass quantities of and it’s been this way for as long as I can remember. I seem to want to close my eyes around 2 hours after sunset (which poses a problem as you can understand when it’s sunset at 5pm).

Back when I became pregnant with my daughter, insomnia reared it ugly head for the first time in my life, and it’s been that way ever since. The HCG believe it or not has been the first thing that has allowed me to sleep like a baby through the night without an issue. So when I am on the P2 portion of the protocol, I am pure heaven and it seems like I am making up for lost time. But when off, the insomnia hits me once again.

Needless to say, yesterday morning was a grouch. Couple this with the fact that I am already experiencing weird and strange cravings for sweets this round, and it was a dangerous combination full of unhealthy food choices. Let me add in here right now that the “girls” have been quite sore the last few days, and you have not only a dangerous situation, but you could even call it volatile.

So from about 8am till 12pm, it was a situation of “let’s see how much damage I can do in one morning” – I honestly do not know where all of that came from. I haven’t had a hamburger ON A BUN in what seems like FOREVER (not just since I have been on protocol, but I have grown to really enjoy burgers without the bun since my Atkins days) – and let’s not even mention the potato salad – I haven’t had that in YEARS.

It was like this sensibility switch got turned off and my body was taken over by some alien force – it was not pretty, and seriously, it wasn’t that good either. I was on some sort of auto pilot, not really caring what I put in my mouth.

After that last bite of potato salad, I was done. That was noon, and whatever switch that was turned off got turned back on, and I couldn’t eat another thing all day. I drank water until it was coming out of my ears, and when my husband grilled pork ribs (my fave) for dinner I told him I really couldn’t eat anything and he was like, just taste it, and so I did. I had just a small rib (like maybe 2 inches) and that was it for me for the day.

Two things I have learned from this experience, I seriously need to get my sleep in, and this food that I ate, I need to remember how it made me feel, like pure crud, it was NOT worth it. After all the good I have done for my body, how I fed it yesterday was not helping the cause.

So I had my little fling with stupid food, it sure wasn’t worth it, and it has convinced me to not do it again. I must find another way to deal with insatiable cravings such as I had yesterday morning. One thing I could have done was just leave the house. HA!

Anyway, over and done with. Today is my world famous EGG DAY. I will FORCE these pounds to drop. All in all, I was expecting a 5 pound gain, so I didn’t come off too badly. And Thursday marks the start of P4 so I wasn’t too much longer that I would be able to eat these kinds of foods for real! Oh well, don’t cry for me Argentina. I am over it and on to another day!

On to my commenter’s – these are my responses to yesterday’s comments:

CB - I heard from Renee for a brief second about a week ago, and I sent her another email to ask her some questions, and as of yet, nothing. I am sure it’s the holiday’s, I am hoping it isn’t something more.

Lili – Protocol or not, we have grown attached to each other! Ya know??? I know you wont see this, you are already on the plane, but here are some good safe trip vibes being sent your way!

Wendy – HA! I wasn’t singling anyone out, I just want UPDATES! I am an UPDATE um, well, you know the word! ROFL

B – Posting good and bad shows that we are all human, that we make mistakes and that we carry on. Even when it is just a stat report, it shows that you care about your readers ya know? Carry on my friend!

Biz